(2) Say it

The words you restrain yourself from speaking.
The things you think, but then drop.
The answers that crawl over your tongue and crash onto your teeth.
The reactions you don't let out of your self-control.

Look, come down, answer, ask, counter-speak, punctualize, stigmatize, act, move, get up, point, stare, nail in.

There's a sort of growl, the latent radiation from everyone's personal universe, which ain't silent ever, like the real universe never is - a bubbling like that of a dense liquid boiling, pushing out from within your belly. You ain't often even aware of it, some times something happens and then you sense the pressure, in some moments it grows up like a mounting wave, but you never let it out. It would be enough to open the mouth, but you fear those dark creatures of the mind that crawl upon your tongue.

This is all wrong. It is harmful. It's like having water in the circuits, it's corrosive in the end, slowly, from within.

I have been observing the harsh dynamics of social relationships for some time now, the human herd's behaviour. Just walk in front of a school, stand in line at the local postal office, go to a cinema or a shop. The real business would be, teach a class in communication for the self-repressed.

Come over, I'll teach you to react. Not how to react: just to do it. Because if you never answer, if you always take it quietly, in the end you hurt yourself. Pressure mounts. Up until one guy in a million bombs off, picks up a gun or a brick or a stone, and lets it all go. Now, would you accept to be shot in the face by your neighbour, just because he never managed to say fuck you to anyone in the last twenty years, even if would have desperately longed to? Come on...

Answer. Shout. Let it all out. Do not move up your shoulders slightly in a gesture of superior surrender, because there is no such thing as superior surrender. There's just surrender. The predator exists because there is a prey. The conner exists because of the conned, and as a matter of fact the ancient Spartans did put them both down in courts, the former because of his dishonesty, the latter because of his stupidity.

Fuck it, you cant understand how much it makes you feel free.
And it is fun too, which is a side effect, but a warm one.
That who pushes, does not see ti coming.
That who bullies, does not see ti coming.
Watch out. I'm gonna get you all by surprise.